current feeling

I have no idea on what I want to be in future.. oh wait its now actually. I have no ambition like other want to be a doctor, a lawyer, a lecturers.. I once had it but I lose it till I know the meaning of dreaming. sometimes I asked myself what do I want to do actually? what did I want actually.? and sometimes I think that I not able to know me myself. I don't know what do I stand for, I do not know who I am. I feel terrible.